Decisions

Guess I won't be updating this space much in future.. except days when I get to hang out with my favourite people and take lots of photos or else... I pretty have nothing much to blog about. It's not that there's nothing happening in my life, in fact, there're like tons of things going on right now and will be happening in the future, just that I'm lazy to translate my thoughts into words here. Shall just let my mind do all the thinking and solving and self-consoling without having to vent it out somewhere. Lots of things to worry about now and many things still left undecided. The phobia of making the wrong decision... I think it's gonna haunt me for the rest of my life. I start to wonder who's the problematic one - the world or myself?

Ok, I feel like crying all over again and staying up late at night hoping I could come to a conclusion but it turns out pointless every time. If only crying helps, I won't be feeling so bad right now.

Probably the last post filled solely with words. And well done man, I finished this post in just five minutes. #justsaying

Instagram #3: Food Edition

1. Manhattan fish market for lunch with char & ber before judgement day. Had a great time catching up and I missed them so much since we've not met up after the end of exams. 2. Monkey's soup of the day at Pastamania.

3. One of my favourite pasta - Chicken Bolognese. Didn't feel like having something with creamy base so decided to go for this instead of carbonara. As usual, it didn't disappoint. And I've got a secret to share: I always love to sprinkle my pasta with lots of cheese, mix it, sprinkle again, mix it again and it goes on for another two more times. Guilty pleasure haha but I really love my pasta to be cheesy! 4. Monkey's tom yum seafood. Oh, this was our lunch after our btt that day. Here's a piece of good news to share: we passed our btt! Yayyyyy! :) Had a great time catching up since this girl is always busy with her uni stuff.

5. Snacking on my favourite potato chips - Ruffles, while watching some random drama. I ate half of the whole bag by myself. FAT. Yes, guilty much. I swear this stuff is SO addictive I can't stop once I start eating them. 6. Late lunch at The Soup Spoon today at 112 Katong. Mushroom Velvety & Meatless Minestrone here.

7. Spicy potato wedges were nice and it's also from TSS. Love it! The BFF meal also came with another half sandwich and we chose the ham & cheese one. Oh btw, I was SO full after the meal my stomach was about to explode, no kidding.
8. Chocolate souffle from Max Brenner Chocolate Bar. Pretty overpriced but I think it's alright to indulge in some chocolate goodness once in a while don't you think so? ;)

Had lots of good food recently and I can't resist but to spam my phone with pictures of them and so decided to come up with this food edition post. If you do not know, I love taking photographs, especially food ones cuz I love to eat haha. You only live once so you should definitely explore and try out all the yummy food around you!

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Timbre

Belated birthday celebration for den & dap at Timbre with bbgs on saturday!

Bday girl #1 on the left

Bday girl #2

Denise's strawberry tiramisu fruit tart

Daphne's mango strawberry fruit tart

Ended the lovely night with a live band performance

Love my girls ♥ ✌

Fucked Up

Don't trust too much. Don't love too much. Don't hope too much, because that too much can hurt you so much.

Feeling so fucking frustrated right now you can't even understand. I no longer believe things will be the way they are forever. What bullshit. Nothing stays forever. And there's no fucking reason why they don't. Things just change somehow. People, feelings, objects, mindsets, everything, they just change like that. It isn't something we can control and this is life - when something changes all of a sudden, you can do nothing but to accept the way things are. Trying to hold onto something or someone that just wants to leave so badly will not salvage anything, instead you'll be left in an even more tired state in the end. You can't stop what's meant to leave or wants to leave. There's no use holding onto an empty shell. It's totally not worth your time at all. Now, I finally understood it. But is it too late? I hope not.

I'm sick of trying to hold on, trying to think of the reason why I've hold onto for so long so as to motivate myself to go on. I'm tired and sick of all these persuading, waiting and giving in. I dare to say that I've sacrificed so many things in order to please you guys but what have you done for me? I cannot stand your selfishness anymore.

I've always thought so much about you guys it's time to start thinking for myself.

A huge step forward

Sunday afternoon spent studying for my insurance tests at the end of this month.

Feeling better now, thanks to the support from my parents. I don't really feel that bad actually, all thanks to bernice for sending me that link the night before judgement day. It motivated me alot and yes, life still has to go on so I have to move on! Narrowed down my decisions and am left with choosing the best and most suitable one for myself. Today turned out to be fine actually. I really don't know what to say anymore but to thank you and you for your understanding. Thank you!!!
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Wore this grey leopard crop top that I got from New Look a few years ago for only $8 or $12 (can't rmb). One of my best buys ever! Lovelovelove!

p.s: Really loving my current blog layout. Simple, neat and nice! Yay! (or is it that everything looks good when you're feeling better?)

Confused

I can never figure out how and why some people can change completely into a totally different person.
Today I realised someone I thought who knows me inside out actually didn't really know me at all.
Or else, she wouldn't have said all those things.
It's just wrong.
I thought I was fine, but another moment I start doubting myself.

Instagram #2

1. Biscuits from M&S which were gifts from mom's friend. 2. Salad bar @ FISH. Lots of varieties to choose from and their staff were very polite and helpful. But their salads are actually nicer than their main courses, which is kind of... wrong?

3. Comfy grey sweater X 4. With my favourite companion at night which is also one of my 18th birthday gift from my bbgs ♥

5. Chips x nacho cheese! Super yummy! Fattening but.. it tastes so good! #1 fan of nacho cheese here and am so glad that I can have any amount I want now. 6. Walking home

7. Favourite cookies & cream ice cream for now. Lots of cookies and the ice cream is kinda chewy. 8. Oreomisu from Emicakes

9 & 10. Lunch @ Ramenplay with yx. Favourite ramen goodness. The soup base is VERY delicious but the pork was average. Still, I think it beats Ajisen seriously.

11. Grocery shopping at M&S. This series of cookies has got to be my favourite out of all the other biscuits from M&S.
12. Cakes & macarons at Canele with bbg X Nice ambience, cakes and the macarons are so good! Affordable price too. Definitely going back there again!

13. With bbg. Had so much fun eating, chilling and catching up last saturday. 14. Kosong and egg prata for sunday's lunch. Yum!

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